My One Word for 2012: Wisdom

All I see when we set out in the pre-dawn morning is the blinking yellow light around my wrist. The neighborhood is quiet, the smart ones are still sleeping, but she and I, we take off into the cold, crisp darkness together, sharing the road, sharing our hearts.

We run slow, it’s been several weeks for me since I last ran. But once we summit that hilly avenue, we settle into a comfortable pace, an easy conversation.

We talk about kids and husbands and homeschooling. About houses and habits and hang-ups. And this is what we do best, this is how we do life together, by bearing each other’s burdens while pounding the pavement. The last time we did this here, it saved my life.

I’m in better shape now, not so much physically, thanks to that beautiful baby boy, but emotionally, mentally, spiritually.

But I could still use a bit of direction, a lot of hope, for the coming year.

“I’m so overwhelmed,” I confide as we round the corner past the old elementary school, “and I have no idea where to start.”

She’s quiet at first, she always is, never wanting to say the wrong thing. And then she says it: wisdom.

Just last night we decided to do another Bible study together, this one focused on the book of Proverbs. And it got me excited. So excited it explains this crazy, crack-of-dawn jogging. Even before we laced up, we sat in my Christmas tree-lit living room, hovering over her laptop, sharing headphones while listening to a Beth Moore podcast.

And this is what she references now, as we cool down, as the sun starts to rise. She reminds me that Solomon, when offered anything by God, asks for wisdom. He knew he’d need it – above anything else – to rule God’s people effectively.

And I know I need it, too. To educate my children, to strengthen my marriage, to manage my time and money and emotions. To fix my faucets and bite my tongue and let go of that pesky compulsion to control. Wisdom just might be the single most important thing I need to improve my life – and the lives of the people He put in it – this year.

We walk through the front door, reinvigorated, kicking off our shoes and peeling off our layers, and the reflector on my wrist, still blinking bright and steady, catches my eye. It makes me think of all the ways I’m desperate for wisdom to guide me through the days and weeks and months ahead.

“The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, get understanding.” (Proverbs 4:7)

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